What would it take for me to be closer to you, show me what stands in my way...

So, I'm in love. With a man, no less.
Jesus.
Like. Not cliche.
I dunno, not at all cliche.

The past week or so has been such a tremendous eye-opener. I mean, just revelation of the importance of my existence and His existence in my life. Not only that, but His desire to be a friend of mine. Like, I pick on my friends really bad, I think He longs for that from me. He wants me to be sarcastic with him, I know that sounds weird. But seriously.

I remember when I was eighteen sitting with TJ and her asking me what I want to do with the rest of my life, and my instant response was "Get married". Ha. That's hysterical. I don't think I even realized at the time that I was going to have all these desires and dreams that would get awaken the next year. I dunno. It seems that Jesus has become at least to some small degree a fulfillment of that desire. I don't even know that that is even one of the top 10 desires of my heart at this point. This time it's not even out of pride or hurt! I dunno. It's sorta crazy.

Anyway, I don't really know what this blog was supposed to be about.
It's like God is most satisfied with us when we are most satisfied in Him.
I dunno. I'm definitely like cloud 11 cuz 9 is too low.
Not like a euphoric thing, like or something where the Lord has just come through so much that I'm in an other-than state. That yes, perhaps everything around me still sucks, but I'm not coming out of love with Him. I dunno. I'm rambling.
I got a meeting in a couple hours. I need favor in this thing so I'm going to go ponder.

You're great.