Wow, it's been far too long since I've thrown up a blog. What in the world has been going on?? I dunno... ...wait Ah, yes. Last Tuesday, wow, probably one of the WORST days of my life, right? I cried for upwards of 20 hours straight, and why? Who knows... Wednesday I was scheduled to speak in front of Ankeny Christian Academy... my authority thought that I was getting attacked for that purpose. I dunno. Probably will never know, but did glean some wisdom listening to the sound of my breaking down.
Here's what happened. I ended up confronting [in love] my boss and explain to him my deep need for family. I don't really have one in reality. [with my dad and I having the restraining order for another 4 and a half years and all] It turned out amazing. And I went home still blubbering and doing that whole breathing thing where you can really catch your breath... know what I'm talking about?? Anyway, I didn't have anything prepared for Wednesday, I mean I had an idea, but I didn't write it out so I had to hustle to slap something on paper. I jotted a small sermon about loving the Lord and loving your neighbor and the importance of that mixing in my testimony and my own heart running away from Him. I was pretty amped.
Anyway, I get to ACA and have to speak to the kindergarten through sixth graders first. I'm immediately escorted into their chapel and sitting before me are 150 or so little kids maybe even more than that! I was so excited. I love kids. Anyway, I get up and I'm like gushing with love for these kids, like, "What the heck is happening to me??" you know? Anyway, I just start asking questions and talking to them about love. I ended up saying, "Did you guys know you can change the world?!!?!?" and they responded, "No we can't." And I said, "Oh yes, you can... I promise you can change the world... who wants to change the world???" and they all stood and waved their hands super excited shouting "I do, I do, I do!" then I asked, "...if you can change one thing in the world, what would you change?" The first kid said, "People love each other more," a few more kids went and said stuff like, "get rid of sin" stuff like that, but then this little kindergarten boy with a green and blue argyle sweatervest said, "I would make it rain donuts." And that's it. That broke me. Like that response made all the crap from the day before worth it. I don't know, it was absolutely not spiritual at all, but even thinking about that moment right now makes me smile huge and I'm sure my eyes light up. It's just wow, my life was worth it, all the pain and hurt and junk just for last wednesday. Who knows, maybe they didn't pull anything from me, maybe it was a waste? But just seeing all those kids realize they can change the world made my life worth it.
Whatever. My hearts all warm now. I'm out.
LoL! Ok, that's just freaking awesome. I wish it would rain donuts.
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